I’m growing older at a fast pace
And they don’t make a road map to navigate this rat race
My bad days duplicating and I need a reprieve
I’m in my twenties and yet I’m mentally fourteen
Or so it seems cause sometimes I feel mad dumb
I only set a new goal when I lost track of the last one
And physically I’m bad, son, in the past year alone
I developed both allergies and asthma
Gasping, plus I’m scared to do my taxes
Fucked ‘em up last year and can’t fathom what happened
Looking back when I graduated high school
I shoulda went to college, but I thought I’d make it rapping
I wish I had mad fans to chant hooks
Someday I’ll slam, until then I’ma stand shook
My fam probly thinks I brandish a handbook
For the scant look of a grown man who can’t cook
While my siblings are all successful and have houses
I’m busy getting Cheeto dust on my mom’s couches
I’m still in town and I feel the pressure mounting
I think I’m ‘bout to burst if I don’t get up n bounce
Yeah, I’ll say I’m bound to leave, but it fears me to say-
I don’t really see it happening, so here I’ma stay
I keep pretending I’ll make it, but it really won’t change
But I’ll spend an entire day playing video games
Placing blame on myself till it’s unbearable
But acting like an adult is dumb terrible
The fact is, reality is unfair to most
Yo, I dunno, maybe I’m scared to grow
I shame myself till it’s unbearable
But acting like an adult is dumb terrible
The fact is, reality is unfair to most
Yo, I dunno, maybe I’m scared to grow
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It's been only a year since I heard Deca on a random chance on a shuffle recommendation. Within that year, Deca rose up the ranks of one of the best lyricists I've heard. The body of art within each project isn't something one can digest in one play through. I actually find it difficult to put a fav on a playlist without needing to revisit an album in its entirety. As a listener and fan of your music, thanks for all you create and share with us. damoclesnuka
supported by 18 fans who also own “Scared To Grow”
Every single time I'm like, "He can't possibly get better than the last album." Every single time, I'm dead wrong. Super surprised to see that it was mastered right up Wadsworth from my old spot in Lakewood. 𝕍 𝕚 𝕣 𝕘 𝕠 ♕ 𝕍 𝕒 𝕟 𝕕 𝕒 𝕝
Brain Rapp’s recent album deals with the ups and downs of real life: health scares, bad breakups and newfound love. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 10, 2017